Do You See?

Tonight is not the last time I'll see the light.

I see the light like i see you, and you see me.

But do we really see one another?

You see what i show you, i see what you show me.

What you don't see is the pain.

The pain that lurks beneath the surface.

The pain of knowing that no matter how much I love her...

The feeling isn't mutual

Do you see the pain of MY problems?

The BIG ones sure, you could understand

If only i told you

Definitely not the small ones, 

The ones that matter only to me. 

Do you see me? 

Do you see what i love?

Do you see that I'm not doing what i love?

Do you see that i don't own myself?

Does anyone own themselves?

I keep forgetting to say,

I Love You

One of the million things i mean

Remains unspoken

When?

When will we own ourselves completely?

When will we wake up one day and sing hallelujah?

When will we see that it's not a victory march,

It's not a cry that you hear at night,

That it's not somebody who's seen the light?

It's a cold and broken.

Don't leave the light on,

I'm looking for the light inside myself.

Do i see that light inside myself?

Do i see that i can do it?

I believe in other people.

I believe that they can live their dream.

I believe they can have the girl of their dreams. 

their car, their house, their life.

Not me.

I Don't believe that I can paint,

I Don't believe I can sing.

As I compose this i don't believe i can write.

I don't believe in my own talent.

Do you see a meaning to happiness?

I could be Golden

I could BE somebody

I could have had my heart broken

I'm fragile

I could bow

I could let you break me

I could kneel at your feet.

I could live the life YOU want me to live

But i won't

Not this time